You live upstairs — in your mind, in your analysis, in the land of logic. You can narrate, predict, theorize, and reflect. You've probably read all the books, listened to all the podcasts, and still feel like something's missing. That something? Your body.
At some point, your nervous system learned that safety lives in thinking, not feeling. Maybe feelings weren't safe to express. Maybe sensation was overwhelming. So you retreated to the mind, where everything could be organized and understood.
You've become brilliant at self-awareness — but you may feel like you're watching your erotic life from a distance. Close enough to comment. Too far to touch.