The
First
Body Memory
For any woman who has ever
sucked in her stomach,
icked herself out in the mirror,
cloaked a grimace during sex—
who would given ANYTHING
to remember what it felt like to live in a body before patriarchy taught us to hate it.
The First Body Memory is An audio pilgrimage through the first body memories of women who never learned to hate their skin including:
9 Ancestral Audio Stories.
A Cosmology of Embodiment.
The Affirmation Your Skin Has Been Waiting For.
The First Body Memory is a ritual audio series for women who want to remember what it felt like before the shame began.
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🌑 Before shame.
Before the mirror.
Before the myth of Eve.
A hip sinks deeper into the soil.
A breast, unheld, falls soft into the air.
A woman breathes—full and slow—without awareness of being seen.
She moves through her life with the surefootedness
of someone who has never asked if she belongs.
This is the memory your body aches to remember.
You have spent a lifetime inside a culture that taught you to flinch, perform, posture.
But what came before?
Who were you, before shame had a language?
This is not a mindset shift.
It’s a cosmology.
A myth.
A memory.
It lives inside your skin.
You’ve just never been guided back—until now.
🌀 What The First Body Memory Actually Is:
The First Body Memory is a digital audio offering of nine immersive, story-based recordings, designed using science-backed methods (more on this below) to shift the way you see and experience your body.
Each recording is a 15–25 minute journey into a world before body shame existed. These are not guided meditations or coaching sessions. They’re rich, sensory audio stories—like short films for your ears and body.
Each one paints a scene from a world before body shame existed, told in language that bypasses your intellect and speaks straight to your nervous system.
You won’t be told what to think or feel. Instead, you’ll witness a woman move through the world in a body untouched by shame—and something inside you will remember how.
Where These Stories Came From
🪶 I didn’t make them up. I remembered them.
For years, I sat across from women who were brilliant, politicized, sensitive, self-aware—
and still caught in quiet cycles of body hatred.
They weren’t missing willpower. Or education. Or perspective.
What they were missing was a map, a model, an ancestral memory they had a born right to access.
A felt sense of what it could look like—move like, breathe like—to exist in a body that had never been taught to flinch.
That had never been picked apart.
That had never been asked to earn its right to take up space.
And I realized:
You cannot become what you cannot imagine.
You cannot feel safe in a body when you’ve only seen it as a battleground.
You cannot reclaim what was taken—if you don’t know what it looked like before it was lost.
So I created these Dispatches because:
🔸 My clients didn’t just need education. They needed embodiment.
🔸 They needed something that bypassed shame and spoke directly to the nervous system.
🔸 They needed a sensory portal into another reality—not a lecture, but a lived memory.
🔸 They needed to remember that this ancestral memory is their birthright — one that no empire, no doctrine, no shame can keep it buried.
So I started writing not from the intellect, but from the marrow.
From something I had always known, and always studied:
That the way we relate to our bodies today is not inevitable.
It is not our nature.
It is a construction—layered over us so slowly, so systemically, that we began to believe it was ours.
But beneath it?
There is an ancient memory.
A rhythm that never left.
A truth that lives in your fascia, your feet, your hunger, your rest.
I wanted to go as far back as I could go.
Past the religious. Past the reactive. Past the scripts that still center shame, even in their rebellion.
So I started writing what I call First Body Memories.
I let myself imagine the diaries we never got to inherit.
These Dispatches aren’t affirmations.
They are blueprints for a way of being we were never supposed to forget.
Let them in.
Let them wrap around your nervous system.
Let them tell you what’s possible.
Because you were never the problem.
You were just never shown what came before.
The Invitation
The First Body Memory is a 9-part immersive audio journey through the ancestral memory of a body that never learned to hate herself.
It is not reactive.
It does not fight shame.
It remembers what existed before it.
This is your body’s origin myth—
Unraveled. Rewritten.
Whispered back into you through breath, sound, story, and rhythm.
It is not a podcast.
It is not a course.
It is a sensory remembering
of the woman you were always meant to be.
🔮 What You’ll Experience
You’ll receive 9 cinematic audio dispatches, each 18–25 minutes.
These are not lessons. They are immersions.
They will feel like:
Being read to by an ancient grandmother who lives in your bones
Touching the soil with your breath
Seeing your body from the inside, for the very first time
Walking in rhythm with the woman who came before shame
Returning—not to a better version of yourself, but to the original
Each dispatch is layered with evocative storytelling, sound, nature, and ritual.
You may weep.
You may rise.
You will not be the same.
🌀 Join The First Body Memory
A sensual reawakening. A return to the body before shame.
Not self-help. Not performance. A lineage whispered through the skin.
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🎧 $97 | Lifetime Access | Includes Bonus Reflection Guide + Audio Sample Download
If this is making your body lean in, you’re probably someone who…
✅ Has spent an entire dinner date subtly sucking in your stomach—without even realizing it.
✅ Moves through the world calculating how much space you're taking up… even in your own bed.
✅ Can’t remember the last time you touched your own body without rushing, bracing, or checking how it looked.
✅ Sometimes stares at your reflection trying to love what you see, but it still feels like pretending.
✅ Can’t shake the feeling that your body is doing its best—and still feels like it’s never enough.
✅ Feels a pang of jealousy when you see someone walking like they belong—because deep down, you know you used to move that way.
✅ Has tried all the tools: affirmations, mirror work, even a boudoir shoot—but the shame always creeps back in.
✅ Can’t stop thinking about that one moment—alone in nature, or in the bath—where you actually felt whole.
✅ Feels like your body is speaking a language no one else around you knows how to hear.
✅ Is exhausted from carrying the weight of your appearance, your desirability, your “worthiness” on your shoulders every day.
✅ Doesn’t just want to think differently about your body—you want to remember a time when you didn’t even need to.
✅ Finds yourself performing confidence, even when you’re craving softness, stillness, or to be witnessed in your rawness.
You don’t need another list of self-love hacks.
You don’t need to force yourself to feel sexy.
You need a memory.
A way home to a version of yourself that’s older than shame—and more true than praise.
The First Body Memory isn’t about becoming a new you.
It’s about remembering the one you were before the world taught you to forget.
🎧 $97 | Lifetime Access | Includes Bonus Reflection Guide + Audio Sample Download
Why This Format Works:
🧠 The Science of Being Moved
You’ve probably heard the phrase: “Stories change us.”
But that’s not just poetry. It’s neuroscience.
When you listen to an immersive story—especially one told aloud in a voice that feels attuned and embodied—your brain doesn’t just hear it.
It enters it.
🌀 This is called neural coupling: your brain begins to mirror the storyteller’s as if you were living the story yourself.
You don’t just understand what’s happening—you feel it in your body.
You build empathy. You rewire possibility.
Because unlike reading a book or watching a video, an audio-based experience invites the whole body into the process.
You can lie down. Walk. Breathe.
You can be in motion, or stillness, or in the bath with your eyes closed.
Your nervous system doesn’t brace—it receives.
🎧 With The First Body Memory, you’re not just listening.
You’re entraining.
That means your body is subtly syncing to the rhythm, tone, and breath of the voice speaking to you.
The cadence becomes co-regulation.
The story becomes somatic permission.
The words become a new way of being.
And because these aren’t just stories—they’re embodied truths told from a deeply regulated voice—you’re not being told what to do.
You’re being shown what’s possible.
👣 Your mirror neurons are watching.
And they’re quietly asking:
Could this safety be mine, too?
Could I take up space like that?
Could I rest, unfurl, hunger, weep like that?
The answer your body receives is not theoretical.
It’s experiential.
That’s why this changes people.
Not through lecture.
But because we speak from the body, and your body recognizes its own.
🗣️ There is no stronger transmission than a body speaking truth aloud.
In a world obsessed with visual perfection and intellectual performance, and in desperate need of good models for how to inhabit the female form without shame,
this audio experience offers something radical:
A direct line to your body’s memory.
A chance to attune to a rhythm that was always yours.
A new story of beauty, belonging, and being—told not from a stage, but from the skin.
📜 What You May Need to Know Before You Begin
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It’s a 7-dispatch immersive audio journey. Each dispatch is a poetic, sensory-rich storytelling experience that invites you to remember a version of yourself before body shame, before mirrors, before performance.
It’s not a meditation. It’s not a podcast.
It’s a reclamation. A remembering. A felt-sense transmission from the women who lived before the myths. -
Nope. This is not a “program” or “course” in the traditional sense. There are no lessons, no modules, no homework. This is somatic storytelling—each dispatch is meant to be felt in the body, not analyzed by the mind.
But transformation still happens. Sometimes more powerfully than years of body image work. -
Each dispatch ranges from 20–30 minutes. Some are soft and slow. Others are wild and primal. All are designed to feel like stepping into another world—and then stepping back into your own body with new eyes.
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7 immersive audio dispatches (MP3 downloads + streaming access)
Bonus Audio Sample to listen immediately
Reflection & Ritual Guide to integrate the stories into your real life
Lifetime access to all future updates and bonus dispatches
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Yes. Most body image work tries to fix how you see yourself.
This helps you remember who you were before you ever looked.This isn’t mindset work. It’s body-based.
It’s not about affirmations. It’s about sensation.
You don’t “learn” it—you absorb it. -
Probably. These aren’t meditations. You’re not being instructed or told to relax.
You’re being shown something. A different origin story. A memory of a time before shame—delivered through story, sound, and embodiment. It’s immersive and cinematic. Think: poetry meets ancestral dreamscape. -
No. While many of the stories center women’s bodies and experiences, The First Body Memory honors all bodies: gender-expansive, nonbinary, trans, intersex, and male-bodied people who are reclaiming sensuality and self-trust.
These are stories of a time before binaries. Everyone is welcome here. -
Yes. These stories were crafted by a trauma-informed practitioner with a deep understanding of nervous system safety. While evocative, they are designed to invite—not force—emotion, memory, or activation. You remain in control of your experience.
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It might open you. It might bring tears. It might stir desire, grief, joy, anger.
But it will not shock or push you. This is a gentle unraveling, not a ripping open. -
That’s exactly who this is for. These dispatches don’t expect you to “already be embodied.”
They remind your body how to listen. You don’t have to know how.
Your body will know what to do when it hears the stories. -
Because audio bypasses the self-consciousness of sight.
Because when your eyes are closed, your body can feel more fully.
Because this is about you, not what anything looks like.Also—storytelling is ancient. It rewires us. It’s how humans have remembered the truth for millennia.
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Yes—and you should. These stories are layered. Many listeners find new textures, memories, and bodily openings each time they return.
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While we stand by the transformative nature of this work, we know not everything is for everyone. We do not offer refunds due to the instantly downloadable nature of the audio, but we encourage you to listen to the free sample before purchasing to ensure the vibe feels right for you.
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No. This is not therapy, coaching, or medical treatment. But it may feel deeply therapeutic. Many listeners describe it as “repatterning,” “soul memory,” or “emotional rewilding.” You’re not being diagnosed. You’re being witnessed—by ancient memory, by your own body, by a lineage you forgot you belonged to.
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You might be surprised. The stories are poetic, yes—but also grounded. They move through breath, flesh, memory, gesture. Even if you live in your head, your body will understand.
(And if your mind needs a bridge: you’ll also get a Reflection + Ritual Guide to help integrate what arises.)
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Yes. You pay once and receive lifetime access, including any future updates or bonus content.
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Yes. The bonus guide will give you gentle practices and prompts—not homework, but invitations—to help you feel this in your real, modern body. This work is not about becoming someone else. It’s about reclaiming who you already are.
the truth about the fall-
Eve and the apple
Everyone knows the story of Eve. The first woman. The first shame. The first fall.
But that was never our story. She ate the fruit. She disobeyed. She became the reason women bleed in pain, the reason we bear the burden of shame, the reason we were told our bodies are dangerous.
That was a rebrand. A warning, designed to turn our hunger into sin, our bodies into battlegrounds, and our pleasure into proof of disobedience.
What if we told you that story was an intentionally wielded weapon? And a recent one, at that.
According to the meticulously researched book When God Was a Woman by Merlin Stone, the story of Eve didn’t emerge from some divine origin—it was propaganda. A rewrite. A patriarchal power move.
In the ancient Near East, long before Genesis was written, there were temples devoted to goddesses. Fertility, creation, destruction, menstruation, sex, and birth were all seen as sacred. Women were priestesses, landowners, decision-makers. The feminine body was revered—not feared.
The serpent? It used to be a symbol of feminine wisdom and regeneration. The tree? Once sacred, connected to Asherah, a mother goddess worshiped across regions before Yahweh demanded exclusive loyalty. The "original sin"? Not even a concept in earlier mythologies. In pre-patriarchal societies, there was no fall, no blame, no shame—only cycle, rhythm, and return.
This is not a revival of the old myths. It’s the writing of a new one. The Hebrew Bible was a deliberate inversion. It took older goddess-centered myths and flipped them: turned the serpent into evil, the woman into disobedient, the garden into a prison she ruined.
Even many goddess-reverent traditions that came later still held the stain. By then, the body had already been marked. Even the sacred had become stylized, hierarchical, trimmed to fit the emerging rules of control.
The First Body is not a return to goddess worship.
It is not a revival of the divine feminine as trend.
It goes further back.
Before The Fall.
Before even myth.
This is ancestral waiting to be discovered on the etchings of your very bones.
Back to the unnamed women who never separated the sacred from the physical. Who never asked if their hips were too wide. Who didn’t fast or flex or shrink. Who knew their softness was survival. Their blood was power. Their body was not an image but an instrument.
To the unnamed women before Eve.
Before sin. Before shame. Before any text told them what their body meant.
This offering is their diary.
Not written in ink, but remembered in blood, in skin, in pulse.
If you’ve ever felt that the shame you carry was not yours—you’re right. It was inherited. Manufactured. Installed.
Let The First Body dismantle it. Let this journey be the new myth. Or rather—the one that came before the myth was ever written.
All registrants will get lifetime access to the recording.
I’m Nicole Siegel—sexological bodyworker, somatic coach, and founder of the Body Compass Method™
I created The First Body Memory because I saw how often my clients struggled to imagine a world beyond shame. They didn’t need more tips. They needed a new origin story. A myth that didn’t begin with brokenness.
These audio stories are that myth.
They’re not fiction.
They’re memory.
They’re possibility.
They’re medicine.
This work is interdisciplinary—woven from sexological bodywork, trauma healing, somatic psychology, tantra, historical study, and mythic remembrance. It’s not a rigid method. It’s a compass that points you inward.
In this space, there is no diagnosis, no perfection, and no timeline. Just a return. A listening. A loosening.
I’m honored to walk this path with you.
My work lives at the intersection of erotic restoration, nervous system repair, and ancestral remembering. I’ve spent over a decade guiding women through the thick, tangled woods of low libido, sexual shame, painful sex, body disconnection, and invisible grief—toward the fertile, surprising ground of real pleasure.
Not the performative kind. Not the “should” kind.
The kind that rises unannounced.
The kind that roots you to the Earth.
The kind your body knew before language.
If you’re here, something in you already knows:
The absence of desire isn’t the problem.
It’s the clue.
The Body Compass ecosystem is for those who:
Crave something more in intimacy—but can’t quite name what
Are navigating a complex mix of blocks: low desire, shame, body image, pelvic pain, emotional labor
Want practical, hands-on support AND deep, soulful inquiry
Are ready to trade performance for presence—and let their body lead
With reverence and fire,
Nicole
You won’t just think differently about your body.
You’ll remember her.
You’ll feel her origins rise up from the soil.
You’ll come home through the skin you live in.
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A sensual reawakening. A return to the body before shame.
Not self-help. Not performance. A lineage whispered through the skin.
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